Life is Funny

Life can really be funny when you stop and think about it. I don't mean funny HAHA just funny in how sometimes we find what we are looking for, even if we didn't realize we were searching for it in the first place. My life, for instance, would bore most people to tears. It is filled with monotonous routines that fill my days. There are times I lose track of the days because they all seem to meld together after awhile. Such is the life of an at home mom, I suppose. There are daily chores I dread like most people. One of them has always been cooking. The same boring meals week after week. I simply made them because I knew how. In the past year, however, I have been striving to take better care of myself. Yes, to exercise and stop eating soo much take out food. It was something I dreaded. Not to mention that I live within a mile of Wendy's, McDonalds, Burger King, KFC and Jim Dandy. In the beginning, I figured I would just cut down on it, maybe once a week. Then one day while web searching, I looked up a recipe. It triggered something in my brain. I began spending most of my computer time looking up recipes and getting details on preparing food. Out of nowhere, I started loving my time in the kitchen and actually looking forward to it all day. I have become obsessed with watching the Food Network. I have found something to be passionate about for the first time in....well way too many years. I realize how ludicrous this all sounds to others. I have been through a lot in the past few years and my life for that matter. For a long time, I walked in a daze and was exhausted. I'm not really talking sleepy, just tired of my life. It's hard being a mom. You know you really won't get the appreciation you deserve until your kids become parents themselves. We don't get thank you's or raises based on our hard work. Sometimes, we wish we knew exactly how we are doing. It's also hard for us to do something for ourselves. A mother holds more guilt than any other person. But when we do find something we enjoy, we give it our all. It could be because we are used to giving all of ourselves or just simply that it is something different. Here's hoping that everyone that reads this, mothers or not, can find a little something to be passionate about.