Is it just me

Does anyone else get weird this time of year? I mean kinda depressed or lost. I don't know what it is about December, but every year I feel like I am just going through the motions of my daily routine without any feelings or thoughts. It could be holiday stuff of maybe the end of the year coming to a close. The feeling of not accomplishing everything I wanted to do this year comes to mind, but I truly don't know. I know I get extremely irritated by the people running around and buying everything they can get their grubby little mits on. No matter what your religion of choice is, I'm pretty sure buying more crap doesn't have anything to do with the big picture. I guess maybe that is it. I get irritated and even saddened by other people who just don't get it. We are supposed to be kinder and more generous this time of year. Why? Shouldn't we be this way every single day of our lives? This may seem strange to bring up, but I remember an episode of Friends where Joey (I think) challenged Phoebe to do one act of selfless kindness for someone else. She couldn't do it because even if she did something for someone and didn't receive anything in return, she at least felt really good about helping. Feeling good about just helping. That doesn't seem so bad.
I remember when I was growing up and on Christmas morning I would open up my stocking and love everything inside. Obviously, not the biggest or most expensive of my gifts but always the most thoughtful. My mother every year would hang up a stocking for herself and every year it would be empty because my step father didn't view it as important. To this day she still hangs up one for herself. Last Christmas Eve, Santa paid her a visit and filled it with all the little treasures she used to discover for others. That is what all this should be about. Doing something for someone else who doesn't expect it and walking away with nothing more than a good feeling. Here's hoping we all remember to be a little kinder to one another not just this time of year, but always. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!